Applying to programs means going over my old transcripts, which has me feeling a little nostalgic. And a little embarrassed, because I’m terrible at recalling when I took what class I took when. I decided that the best way to remember was to go back and check my old journals. I’m a saver, and I have a big box full of old race numbers, ticket stubs, letters, and journals, as well as odds and ends like ping pong balls and woodchips. I don’t go through it very often, so it was nice to leaf through and reminisce. My journals weren’t very helpful (I mention classes, and homework assignments, but it’s a lot of drama and boy stuff), but it was interesting to read back on my freshman and sophomore year experiences. I made some pretty dumb decisions, but I had a lot of fun.
When I look at my record I can’t help but wonder what would have happened if I had stayed at Geneseo. I would probably have a higher GPA, but I don’t know if I would have realized that I want to be a midwife. I wouldn’t have joined crew, I doubt I would have explored my sexuality to the extent that I have, but I hope I would have gotten my head on straight regarding rugby boys. I wouldn’t have met some amazing people. I wouldn’t be who I am. But I wonder who I would be. I don’t regret going to Smith- it was amazing, and I was incredibly lucky to have that opportunity, but I can’t help but wonder. I think a lot of the changes I’ve undergone have just been part of growning up, and it’s possible that I would be similar, but I’m happy to be where I am either way. I might have had a higher GPA if I had stayed, heck, I might already be in grad school, or engaged even, but I’m happy where I am.
What was your favorite class in college?